today was such a monday!

it really was. I looked like krapp, i was unbelieveably tired, and bored. I was SO out of it. o well. I need to do my english, but i won't, i'll just copy andrew's analysis tomorrow. The english i'm in is honors, it's not that hard. It does however filter out all the idiots, which is good. anyway. Debate meeting, boring. i have a competetion on wednesday, and i better win. It's the last round of the Utica debate league. Afterward they announce the ranks and hand out the awards, we might rank, we might not, but, i do qualify for a speaker award, so yay. So i find out today i'm in charge of booking the banquet hall for my youth group's event next year (january). That's fine with me. I can handle it, but ICA better not give me shit! I almost most definately will book the Unity Center. It's very nice. I ran for vice president earlier this fall. I have been in MYNA for 3 years, this is now my fourth. I deseved it SO much. so much more then the bitch who won. Why the hell did she run??? She's a freshman! all of her other fucking freshman friends oted for her and i lost, by one vote. I know i'm only a sophomore, but i've been in MYNA a lot longer than she has. I have a shit load more experience and leadership skills. I'm not fucking lazy. And I KNOW HOW TO FUCKING GET THINGS DONE!! at meetings me and medina,the president, run things. She just kinda stands up there being stupid, because she dosen't know what to do. When the supervisors announced the results, i died. I felt a fuse pop in my head. It was one of the worst feelings ever. i didn't sleep that night. I cried. I felt like I had failed miserably. But it wasn't my fault. I don't think i could have been any more persuasive. You just can't get stubborn bitches to not vote for their pal. ONE fucking vote. I could blame so many people. but i'm not going to go there again. All i wanted was the recognition for the crap that i know i'm gonna end up taking on this year. It's such bullshit. And you know what pisses me off the most? the people who voted for her come up to me on saturday and say "o you should of won." or "o i voted for you, she dosen't know what she's doing." DON"T FUCKING LIE TO MY FACE!!!! i know she dosen't know what she's doing! And I know you fucking supported that bein the vp of myna isn't like playing with shits and giggles! IT takes fucking dedication and work god damnit! And someone with half a head on her shoulders!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!

significance of today

well, today we had late start, which is usually but, today, i was till tired. Yesterday there was latestart as well. But, right after school, i had to be go to a debate competetion... and i won, yay me :*]. I actually scouted the other team out, o well, i was just being resourceful. later that night i got to catch up on my reading, TIME, and this novel, about grace. It's a very good, book i'd recomend it to anyone. today was okay, not the best. It was fine until i got to 6th hour and got my test back, i got a 78% that is not what i was expecting, it made me very sad and angry. I really stuidied and i thought i did well, but show's how much i know. And you know what else pisses me off, when I ask a question to MR. smith about the lesson, he gives me so much crap and smartmouthness(is that a word?) it;s very frustrating. I feel like I can't ask questions in his class, and that's why i get less than wonderful grades. The end of the marking period is next week, we have a quiz tomorrow and a notebook check. I studied, my notebook is always organized, I NEED THOSE POINTS! if i want to get at least a B- for the quarter, i need a 90 on the quiz and a 97 on the notebook check. If you're reading this wish me luck. Anyway after i leave class feeling very upset and getting my elbow slammed inside my locker, i get to the front of the school where i wait for my ride and chill with friends. So i go up there put my books down.
"wud up shorty?" Sonnie :*) he didn't realize it but just seeing him, made me feel better. From behind me steve comes up and starts tickeling me.( i'm super ticklish) He gets me half way to the floor. Sigh. They leave me with hugs and a smile and sense of knowing, that i have good friends. I love them both, I do. God bless them for being so great. Even in summer, when i was a little messed up from everything, i rode my bike and accidentally found their house. they were so wonderful to me. I don't think they realize it though, but that's okay.
When i think about it, my problems seem so small. See, i was working at the hospital today, at the surgical reception, like I always do. This woman comes up she just wants to check on her husband. So kelly runs back to OR to get an update. the woman waits at the reception. she says "It's been a long week." and i'm like "tell me about it." she does... her daughter died earlier this week. 31 years old. 2 kids. she was In intensive care for 4 days, so i'm guessing it was a car crash. I look at the woman who is startign to get teary. all i could say was "deepest sympathy" I wanted to reach out and take her hand and say to be strong, but the phone rang. So what is the significance of today? COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS PEOPLE, TELL THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE THEM...AND COMMENT ON SHRO'S BLOG!

just read...

have you ever thought about someone so much that you have hot dreams about them? I do. ALL THE TIME. i love my own "original" films. my mind is unbelieveably horny at night. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! the star of yesterday's special feature is one of my Favorite guys! no one you would know, but unbelieveably yummy to me. He is about o, 6' 5"ish 250ish pounds i wanna say and a whole lotta man! HE's 24 (i know i always go for older guys) carmel hair i wanna say hazel eyes... AND REDICULIOSLY GOOD LOOKING! like he's so hot it should be illegal! O GOD!!!! so you're wondering, what caused me to think of this guys? well, yesterday there was an event at the center and i saw him for the first time in a while. He saw me, got exited and came over and gave me the sweetest, closest hug, and kinda rubbed his face against mine. HE said he looked good, i said thanks and same to him, but then i had to go meet someone else and he had something to take care of. Anyway It was only a few minutes but it was enough to make the cut into MGM SHRO productions. I DEFINATELY need to have a fling with him some time...like for sure.

yea me ;*)

o thursday. theursday. yesterday was wednsday. yesterday I won both rounds at the debate competetion. I am undefeated! It felt more awesome yesterday, today its just like whatever. Parent teacher confrences. Usually it woudn't be a biggie, but i have a D+ in math, its actually a 69.2% so almost a C. anyway. It's ramadan i get to fast for 30 lovely days.... i was woking at the hospital today. I work with mary, which is always fun. She's just wow, TOO funny. lol anyway i don't know what else to say.