today was such a monday!

it really was. I looked like krapp, i was unbelieveably tired, and bored. I was SO out of it. o well. I need to do my english, but i won't, i'll just copy andrew's analysis tomorrow. The english i'm in is honors, it's not that hard. It does however filter out all the idiots, which is good. anyway. Debate meeting, boring. i have a competetion on wednesday, and i better win. It's the last round of the Utica debate league. Afterward they announce the ranks and hand out the awards, we might rank, we might not, but, i do qualify for a speaker award, so yay. So i find out today i'm in charge of booking the banquet hall for my youth group's event next year (january). That's fine with me. I can handle it, but ICA better not give me shit! I almost most definately will book the Unity Center. It's very nice. I ran for vice president earlier this fall. I have been in MYNA for 3 years, this is now my fourth. I deseved it SO much. so much more then the bitch who won. Why the hell did she run??? She's a freshman! all of her other fucking freshman friends oted for her and i lost, by one vote. I know i'm only a sophomore, but i've been in MYNA a lot longer than she has. I have a shit load more experience and leadership skills. I'm not fucking lazy. And I KNOW HOW TO FUCKING GET THINGS DONE!! at meetings me and medina,the president, run things. She just kinda stands up there being stupid, because she dosen't know what to do. When the supervisors announced the results, i died. I felt a fuse pop in my head. It was one of the worst feelings ever. i didn't sleep that night. I cried. I felt like I had failed miserably. But it wasn't my fault. I don't think i could have been any more persuasive. You just can't get stubborn bitches to not vote for their pal. ONE fucking vote. I could blame so many people. but i'm not going to go there again. All i wanted was the recognition for the crap that i know i'm gonna end up taking on this year. It's such bullshit. And you know what pisses me off the most? the people who voted for her come up to me on saturday and say "o you should of won." or "o i voted for you, she dosen't know what she's doing." DON"T FUCKING LIE TO MY FACE!!!! i know she dosen't know what she's doing! And I know you fucking supported that bein the vp of myna isn't like playing with shits and giggles! IT takes fucking dedication and work god damnit! And someone with half a head on her shoulders!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!